Me, Myself & I

2011-01-27T01:18:00.001+08:00

Okay.. I am very sad... I have wrote a page full of words and it just suddenly went missing. DAMN!

2010-12-27T21:58:00.001+08:00

Wahahaha, Finally i am back for a last update before the start of a whole new year!!!

Okay, in this year, i have accomplished a lot of things, hopefully next year will be a better year for me and i'll be able to attain my greatest wish of successfully appeal into a local university to end my misery days.

Love all.

2010-10-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day of school, felt damn stress about the start of the day. So much to vent, felt so loved when my sweet girlfriend mesaged me and wish me good luck for my very first day! Love you Miss Ng. I have my concern parents to be waiting for my calls from home. As well, nice boyfriend's mother to message and show concern about my first day in school! Love you all!

Tho' it is a very tiring and lousy start of my school term but lets hope everything will soon get into place. I am super rusty now, being out of school for more than 1yr, seriously hope i will perform!

Okay, am on the line now, see ya'!

2010-10-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

She is so cute!!!

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2010-09-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

Super Duper Tired!

I have been calling out for help over the past few days and finally one kind soul is here to my rescue. :) (What a close shave...) Imagine if she did not appear? Than i would be in deep shit. Now than i realise how important it is to be nice to everyone around you as you might not know they will be you saviour one day.

My wish: Get it over and done with so that i can start a fresh soon. :)
God, may you be on my side.

2010-08-23T23:49:00.003+08:00

Okay I shall not make you be caught in a difficult position. I know I am being petty and fussy! I promise I'll be a good 包 and your good 包. Take care. Love you.

Today is my last day of work. Have had a good farewell lunch with my unit. Love the scrap notebook that they have done for me. Love it so much! I think i really need to start playing with my new PET before the master of it comes after me! ^^

Tomorrow will be the start of my unemployed days. Rest well XueLing!

Love my pals too.(Those who have been texting and are around me!)
You too my pals, rest well!

Good Bye, See You, Love You!

2010-08-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

.About me.

I love scrapping recently as there is a dark secret behind it, I like scrapping as I feel that you are around. I am not coping.

I scrapped and answered my love ones rubbish on messages, I seriously think that I need some rest. However, it is contradicting, my rest time is approaching soon, from next Tuesday onwards, but this is also the start of another fear, fear of scrapping the whole day to feel your presence.

Where will you be?

2010-08-15T19:49:00.008+08:00

Hello everyone, here for some updates.

Recently am crazy over card making. I almost spent all my allowance in Paper Market and Made With Love! However, thanks to 小白 for funding some of my new pets! Haha, (this is the first time he paid without nagging) heehee. shhhh.

A lot of things happened recently, I have learn the beauty of not communicating through MSN or SMS for important stuffs that might cause a misunderstanding to arise. Phone or directly conveying of message is the best option to avoid SILLY Misunderstandings and make those people involved look like fools (as sometimes words are not being transmitted word for word ! instead, only rough ideas). SO peps, to avoid such situation to happend in your life, hit my advise please.

My 小白 is so loving recently, guess what, the best time to con your boyfriend into buying you any funny stuffs is when they just finish their first 2 weeks worth of confinement in army. lol. They are simply like those folks who have been seduced by young pretty ladies, willing to fork out all their money for you. hahahaha. 小白 I didn't mean to say you are one. Wahahahaha. No doubt, I just simply love you. All of you! Thank you 小白 in advance! See you next weekend!

2010-08-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes LOVE just ain't enough.
No mater how tolerant we are, sometime love from us to you are just ain't enough to cover everything that you have done.

2010-08-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

Okay, Am here to do some updates.

Met my girls some days ago, like last Friday.
On sunday, celebrated XinXuan's 21st.
(Met my girls again!)
Know what, i realise on that day that XiaoHui has never change at all, still the same old her! Haha.

The saddest thing of all,
I sent my Boyfriend to Tekong last Thursday.
Guess what, I have spoke to his Dad like for a one whole solid hour, this 1hour is like x4 the total number of time I have speak to him in this 4years of my realationship with KW. LOL! However, it is still something remarkable! Atleast i talked!

In recent days, have been busy working, meeting friends and etc.
Whatever it is, I am so going to find some time for myself!
Am starting School in October! Excited!(*Winks*)

Guess what, recently I have done something real 'NOT ME'!
I actually said,'I LOVE YOU' while i am taking public transport!
Haha, guess my love for you is different now.
We have attained another level of trust once again.
Walking towards our good 4years worth of love.
It is not easy to have come so far, imagine the days we endured with one another, but still, we manage to overcome all odds and pull though till now.
Hope everything will be even better after this and a good, 5,6,7,8,... years will come it's way. LOVE YOU!

2010-07-12T22:48:00.001+08:00

YOu know what is pissed?
I know!

2010-06-19T05:45:00.002+08:00

Am now blogging from Paris.
I miss home.
I miss my CLYDE! I think now he should smell like Rong. LOL.
(After so many days before someone claims him.)
I miss my sisters.
I miss my parents.
(Imagine my mum got so worked up when i forget to reply her message, she stay up the whole night to wait for my message.)
I miss 小白 too.
(Felt guilty as i couldn't think of what to get for him, poor 小白, I'll make it up when I am back.)

Soon I'll be home. In 3 days time.
Em... Miss home... The smell of my room.
How am i going to survive if my mum decides to send me overseas for studies?
Hai, *Shake Head*.

2010-05-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

Take a break.

2010-05-09T21:51:00.003+08:00

Have been REAL busy recently.

2 Weeks ago, i was busy getting 21 diferent presents and coordinating birthday surprises for my dearest sister, Daphlyn Rong! Got a scrapbook for her too. Hope she likes all the things that we had done for her.

Now, am real busy with conducting make-up lessons for all my students as i am leaving for France in June for 3 weeks. *looking forward to it!*

During these few weeks ever since my 小白 started working at Universal Studio, i am seriously deprived of LOVE! I felt being abandoned WHEN I AM ALONE,but also during this time, thanks to my girls for standing in for him when he was not available for me. Thanks for all the shopping and chatting time you girls gave me.

Some words from the bottom of my heart, *usually i am not that expressive*;
小白, recently i am being more unreasonable than usual, like what i told you yesterday, "If only i could stop ** **, than i think i won't feel so lonely now." 小白, pleased don't feel abandoned or not being loved when you are not, as i am always here. So please don't ever repeat the line, " I think you don't love me anymore." again. Anyway, thanks for bearing with me during this period, I will continue to be UNREASONABLE... ^^

2010-04-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

I think i'll be happy for you. Actually, during the past weeks, i've started to keep pet phrases that are vulguraties.
Hmm... i think i should change for good. I know i didn't behave infront of you, my apologies. I know i need to stay clam
so as to protect my parents, but my concious just go haywired that day. Sorry!
From now on, i promise, i'll change!

2010-04-15T11:26:00.001+08:00

Just to share.

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The cute angle that somehow, saved my day.

2010-04-15T11:04:00.002+08:00

Alot of things happened recently. None of them makes me feel happy. On Sunday, i have had a sleepless night and followed by a Tuesday dawn, i have had a tough night. So much so that i hope both of the days, the news that were broke to me, they were just lies.

My grandfather (GongGong) left me on a Tuesday morning. He left alone. When we rush to the hopsital, all that was left was a cold and expression-less GongGong. He once told me this when i visited him last Tuesday, "Nobody came to visit me today, you are the only one. GongGong is old already, and useless so no one wants me or even talk to me." I replied, " No, at least i am here!"

All these while, little did i expect that when he left me, it would be heart brokening as I am not particularly close to him since young. However, after all these while of visits i have paid to him, i think the bonding was built and it was there. My deepest regret was that i didn't have the time to visit him on Sunday, when my parents did.

GongGong, remember that you are not old and useless, you have to be strong. I am helpless in stopping them to jab you even when you're gone but i know you will be able to withstand the pain for the one last time. When you're there, no one will jab you and feed you medications that you don't like and you don't have to live on machines anymore. No nurses will tie you to the bed to restrict your movements too. GongGong, remember to have a smooth journey over there.

ps. The only thing that i am happy about was that i did manage to do something for you before you left me. I will always remember that.

2010-04-07T22:09:00.003+08:00

'Tired' had became my pet word for the past few days. I am drowned with work, loads and loads of work. I begin to think that I am a real control freak! Be it who he or she is, I will always feel like controling them! I like to order them to do this and that, or simply, just ask them to do it MY WAY! I think someone has got to deal with me, deal with this kind of me, the me that is such a control freak! Who will help me???

2010-04-03T03:33:00.003+08:00

Wow, it had been so long ever since i last chatted under someone's block till dawn. Now the time is 3.34am in the morning, ALMOST DAWN. I just got home like at 3am? It is the first time i sat on a ride by Rong, thanks girl. It had been so long ever since i spoke to my friends till wee hours, i love it. We shared alot of our foolished experienced when we were young ( I think i shared the most). Can we have more of such session in future? I have learned alot and think that i have had changed for the better over recent years (at least in my humble opinion). Everyone is changing, changes in one is inevitable, so accept it. I experienced it, and adjusted all my changes to suit my personality, so have you?

Anyway, i think i should really 'blow'/'vomit' my heart out in this post.
Xiao Bai, thanks for all the patience and time recently (Including monetary support, i know i am a real spendthrift ^^). I know you are really trying very hard to put up with my witfulness and nonsense, so a big Thank You, Hug and Kiss to you. So please do not vomit blood before i do.

2010-03-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Finally i have passed my GP and is on my way to apply for university. Hope things will go well this year.

Recently many things had happened, be it good or bad all i can say is we humans learn as we progress. Hang in there my dear friends! Rainy days will soon be over.

Hadn't been meeting my girls lately, all of us are so busy that our available time hardly matches one another's. That's sad.

Time to engage in some sports, am learning swimming now, my coach is quite a good one, he had managed to make me swim within 2 hours with the aid of a swim board. Thanks coach Toh!

Hey Uncle Toh, thanks for all the patience you had given me all these while. I know i can be a REAL irritant at times, but no matter what, if that time really comes, I'll wait for you. ^^ I Promise.

ps, Zhiwei, if you happened to drop by and see this, remember I'll be there.

2010-02-09T22:18:00.001+08:00

I miss you... Hope you are doing fine now.

2010-01-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

Saw you last night, you didn't grow old or looked mature at all. You are still you. Thanks for remembering that I'll be turning 21 this year. Thanks for the SUPER early Birthday gift. You make my day. Days without you can sometimes be unbearable, but i often remind myself that without you by my side i can always be stronger, mentally. Sometimes i wonder, if days are reversable and I am able to return to those days, will things be different? What will happen to me before and after?

Am i really ready to let you go? I doubt so... ...

2010-01-15T12:35:00.003+08:00

Okay, I am finally here to do some updates after like almost one month!

Had been busy working all day long. :( Not something that i like but, still i need money to survive!

This Tuesday 12.01.2010 was a special day for Uncle Toh, Toh Kun Wei. It was his 21st birthday. Happy Birthday! Celebrated with him at Marche, 313@Somerset! Hope he has enjoyed his day. My Pocket is seriously calling for SOS, i have sesiously overspent for his birthday! Anyway, hope you like those presents i have prepared for you.

Photos to be uploaded soon... I hope... heehee.

Upcoming event??? Still as busy as usual, call me if wanna meet out! I will try my best!

-Okay, Bye Bye!-

2009-12-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

Finally I am going to end my 'Lazing Around Days'!
I will be starting work next Tuesday.
So people, if you wish to ask me out, now is the time!
(Cause I will be very busy after i start to work.)

Feeling: GREAT!

2009-12-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

Responsibility

2009-12-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

Being a mum is a huge responsibility. I am not sure if i can be a good one in future. Having children implies that you have to give up your personal space and showers them with UNLIMITED love, care, concern, time and attention. Furthermore, you have to educate them, teach them the right values and how to handel relationships. If they are sick, you have to care and look after them unconditionally. What a huge responsibility a mum has to bear when she decides to have childern. As without any of the above mentioned qualities, the relationship between mum and children will fail one day as he or she will thinks that you ain't responsible enough as you did not show sufficient care and concern for them. Sacrificing is inevitable.

Am i ready? I doubt so.

2009-12-02T00:51:00.007+08:00

I went Marina Barrage on Sunday to have my post birthday celebration with my cousins!

I had a picnic and kite flying session that i longed for!

My cousins brought me a kite as my belated Birthday present! [Thanks alot, i really like it!]

Ha, after the picnic session, i ended up like a toasted bread! =)

I have had a SUPER Sunburnt!

Those who saw me these few days will understand the SUPER-ness of the sun's heat that i had experienced last Sunday!

No matter what,...it was a fun day!

Had udders and minced pork noodles! [Thanks to my piggy bank!]

It was a real tiring day.

I love this picture...

2009-11-27T18:50:00.003+08:00

Flooded with emotions.
Experiencing a drought of Words.

Who is going to fill me when i don't even have the will to speak for myself as i am experiencing a drought of words and flood of emotions?

Perhaps, anyone or anybody can just stand by and speak on my behalf but it may not be what i intended to say or is what that is flashing on my mind!

It's time to learn to see and heard from all individuals and practice precise judgement on different perspectives that one encountered.

-That's me-

2009-11-22T14:14:00.003+08:00

I Think i am sick.
Mentally sick!
Internally sick!
Can we [everyone] just stop talking for the moment?
Noise is killing me, i hate talking.
Tho i used to be someone who is talkative.
Yet now, guess what?
Silence is golden!
Slience please...........

p.s. ps if i don't reply any of your texts. Ring me, if you need immediate answers.

2009-11-04T19:59:00.001+08:00

Hee. I have turned 20 today! The offical no 1s day!
Thanks to Rong, KC, Ray and Kun Wei for celebrating with me today!
Thanks Ray, KC for the chocolate!
Xiao Bai for the Real BIG Balloon! I really love it alot! Thank you!

Thanks for everything! Hope my exams next week will be a good one. =)

Cheers!

2009-11-02T00:27:00.003+08:00

I have had a great time with my Sisters and Friends on Saturday at Cinelesiure.
We met out for dinner to celebrate Xin and My birthday in advance.
Attandance of the dinner met:
1. Xin
2. Rong
3. Shan
4. Kunwei
5. JunJie
6. KC
Wow, with this group of people, fun exist!

Thanks to everyone for celebrating my birthday with me, and the handmade birthdays cards and presents that was given to me, really appreciate everything. Thanks.

TO: Xin, Mummy and Gong Gong
Happy Birthday, althought i know that Gong Gong is currently undergoing some hardship now.

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2009-10-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

Ha. I am here to thank Xiao Bai.
Thanks for visiting me on the very first day!
Thanks for being the Indian who took away my char siew bao on the day when i return home!

Thanks for everything.

2009-10-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

Finally i am home after 3 days of stay in the hospital.
Was knocked out within 3 seconds in the operating theater.
When i woke up, i am already in the ward. Basically pain covers the whole of my body. Hope things will get better REAL SOON!

Thanks to my sisters and friends who have either in one way or another, drop by to pay me a visit, a message or a phone call. Thanks for all of your concern. I am doing real fne now, except that i am walking like someone who has just gave birth. HA.

2009-10-13T00:44:00.002+08:00

Met up with Xin and JJ on Saturday, gosh, i think i should be traped at home and not allowed to go out... I am really a spendthrift! I spend nearly 200 bucks on that day. I think Clyde benefited the most!

Studied with Ning Xin today at Suntect's Mac, it is a cool experience to have an expert next to you so that you can check your grammar any time! It's really great studying with her! Hope our Sunday meet can be fulfilled. =(

After that, met Xiao Bai for a while, ha, thanks for everything today! =)
ps. Althought i don't really like some of your comments due to the irritation caused by your tight pants..... =(

Am going for Op soon, hope everything goes well. =0
Nervous............

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-10-05T00:25:00.006+08:00

Date is drawing nearer.

Getting more and more unsettled.

Can't stop thinking of it.

How long will i sleep?

How long will it take?

What time will it be?

A total of how many holes?

GOSH.. The more i type, the more unsettle i become.

God bless me.

-Me, Myself & I-

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2009-09-25T00:26:00.002+08:00

Went for my follow-up at KKH yesterday, i think i will have to take good care of my body from now on. It can be scary when someone tells you about 'What's wrong with your body'. Indeed, it is Not a good experience.

Today, quote of the day:

SIMLE, AS TOMOROW WILL BE ANOTHER BETTER DAY.

ps. To the person whom i met today, this for you. A smile will make a day. Although a drop of tear will also make a day but it is in a difficult way, why not make a wise choice by choosing to smile? Be courages, you have all my support.

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-09-16T12:49:00.007+08:00

Some bloody idiot shrewed my day(ytd)!
When the hell cabbing from Cityhall to Yishun than back to Bishan will cost up to $58???????
RIDICULOUS!
These people are just out to cheat other's money!

However, no doubt my day was spolied by this bloody idiot, there are still something that slightly brighten up my day. =)

2009-09-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

Went for a dinner gathering with all my 5-1 Friends..
Happy... ^^
Reached home at 5am!!!! Damn.

We went swensen's for dinner, the freaking swensen's at ION... Was like damn WULU!
Catch up with alot of friends, think i should meet them more often!
After the dinner, superstar, KangHong suggested for K-Session and since everyone agrees, we headed to TOPONE!

On the way there, I experienced a very 'wonderful' ride.
LOL.
STUPID LEON MAKES ME PUKE! The ride was like so dangerous! Lucky i came home in one piece!
Where got people reverse on a main road where there is a 'Quite Heavy Traffic'!!!
LEON, POWER!
When i reached TOPONE, i puke immediately!!!
Leon, u make me waste my money!!! All my Swensen's is out!

Okay, after that, at TOPONE, we sing song, talk crap, doing funny moves and cam-whoring! LOL!
HA, all of them are amaze by how i can cam-whore!

Okay, end here already.
Looking forward to the sentosa trip!

2009-09-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

Gosh, Never shop with Rong!
LOL. Went JB with Rong and JunJie today.
It was a fun trip.. I think i'm too crazy today alr. Make them laugh till 爆!

Our 战绩:

JunJie: 2 pairs of shoes and i think 3 shirts...
Me: 3 pairs of shoes and some TIMES magz...
Rong: 6 pairs of shoes + 20++ comics + 2 Tees........

OMG, tho not all that she brought are for her, i stil admire the way she spent!

Classic line of the day:

Okay, i'll have this.

This is what she had been saying the whole day!

I salute you my sis!

2009-09-06T13:59:00.001+08:00

Okay, met up with girls yesterday. =)
Em.. Think i should be isolated recently.
Words coming from my mouth are decreasing significantly.
Gosh, What had happened to me?
No idea.
It was nice to meet my girls since we haven't met for long.

Aftermath:
1. Shan said that if only i bring along KW than only she will be willing to ask Terry along for a dinner meet.
So Uncle Toh, will you be available for me to date you?

2. Rong said that my blog is very 'POOR' as in no entries. LOL. I will try my best to make it 'RICH' ya? Ha.

2009-09-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

Guess what.. I bump into NingXin today.
The surprise that i experienced is just so unexplainable via words.
I really miss my CNB friends.
Azlinah, WaiLeong, GuoLiang, Ben, NingXin, ZhouXiang, Mai and ZhangHong.
Gosh... I knew so many of them.. But had never met any since July...
=(

My Friend

2009-09-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Met Melissa today. =)
Received comments that i became more 'QUIET' recently.
I think so. Perhaps it's because the right topic is not there.
However, i enjoyed the meet with Mel today. She always got so much to update me!
Really... through out my JC years... She is the only one to remember.
Glad to know her!

2009-08-17T09:34:00.000+08:00

Was discharged on Friday evening.
Till now still felt weak and tired.

There are words that i would like to say....

Thanks for all the concern during my stay in TTSH, had received lots of messages and calls.
Thanks for all those who had visited me and kept me accompanied during that few days.
i.e Rong, Xin, Shan, Terry, KC, Ray, Elwin and more....
Esp. Rong thanks for accompaning me home and being my potter on the day of my discharge.
Thanks people for the time and presents.

Hope for a speedy recovery... Hai

p.s. Should have missed out alot ytd when i missed baby Jo's birthday celebration, felt so bad, wasn't able to attend. My bad. =) Hope he enjoyed the celebration.

2009-08-12T13:28:00.002+08:00

Pain Pain Pain!

Doctor says.... If cannot gotta go HOSPITAL! Hai....

2009-08-09T23:53:00.005+08:00

Went to Ubin this Thursday. What a shame!!!!! I have to depend on charmaine to 'protect' me through out the cycling journey on that piece of land! Hai, i think i should really practice my cycling skills cause i have goten myself a very nice PRESENT!

Instead of preventing myself from falling, the bike fall on to me! 'OUCH'

Had seafood lunch there, took a lot of random pics and all can be found on my FaceBook. =)

ps. Tho' i know you will not be reading this but still, thanks charmaine!

2009-08-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

Time for some updates.

Last week met up with JC classmates for a tennis session.
The A4... Alex, Addison, Melissa and Me.

Mood: Happy =)

This week... MOOD: LOUSY, MOODY, SAD........
Learn that Jun Kai passed away on Sunday morning,
Tho' I am not very close with him,but he has always been the one i teased for because of Hui Rong
and i have always been his laughing stock for Zhi Wei and Clement.
Indeed a REAL friend in all of our eyes.
Went to sent him off yesterday morning,
tried hard to control tears from rolling down
but all the effort was ultimately wasted.
The rest of the day was moody and lousy.....
Noting seems right....

My friend, 一路走好.

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-07-20T13:24:00.002+08:00

Time for updates again...

Don't understand why some people just like to keep whining and complaining and yadayadayada... about their studies and yet do nothing to savage it!

Since you know your results are bad, make the effort to attend school and classes regularly lah! Why waste time on some useless activity and than come to me whining and complaining????????

Guess what? I have known of a person who kept teling me that she/he wanna get into a local University and yet.....
1. Everyday late for school....
2. Skip lecture...
That is still considered FINE to me.

The worst part:

Some people are suppose to have lesson at 12pm and yet by 12pm some blooding idiot is still happily having lunch in Woodlands/Marsling.

WTH.. What kind of attitude is this???????
If you seriously don't feel like studying or going to school please..... Stop all your whining...

Stop telling me how financilly unsound (I guess only you will think so) you are and how much you wanna to get into a local university... I don't have time for all these nonsense!

Just SHUT the HELL UP!

-Pissed Off-

2009-07-07T17:14:00.003+08:00

Today is a special day to me for 2 reasons but only one is good!

Remember 0707 was a day to commemorate my SISTER-SHIP.

It was a day calculated by some "Self-Proclaimed" mathematics formular!

We started out as Primary school friends.

Came together as REAL good friends in secondary.

Remember those days that we're in the same class, bullying all other guys.....

FOND MEMORIES FLOWs.........

To my girls:

Thank you for being with me all these while. No doubt misunderstanding arrise in between our sister-ship. I think that is what really bond us together as misunderstandings give us a chance to clearify and understand each other better. Simply love u girls alot! I think now i really cannot do without you girls anymore especially when we went through thick and thin together!! Only REAL friends go through thick and thin with you!

Muacks! LOve U!

Happy 10th anniversary!

ps. another reason why it is special is because, after so long, i vomited blood again! HAI......

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-06-28T13:18:00.006+08:00

Went for a Pro-Photoshot yesterday. Met gorgeous people! One of them is......

Tada......

She is... Hmmm... I think she's called Yana (Yanny). Oops i forget to ask for her name!

An 18 year old talented make-up artis!

Nice to met you!

Now.. Its my turn...

Lots of picturess taken yesterday.. (Usual me lah!)

Here are some for you to see! For your eyes' Pleasure.

Me while taking pictures. =)

okok... more to come...

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-06-11T21:29:00.003+08:00

Okay, it has been sometimes ever since i last update!

Alot of things happened.

LAST WEEK:

1. I've got brushed down by all 3 local unis. Hai. Hope my appeal will get through.

2. I met up with Melissa on Tuesday (2.6.09). We went back to school to collect our cert.
She told me that all majority of the girls has gotten a place in NTU. LOL.
Really hope that my appeal for NTU will get through so that i can join them too.

3. Had my tooth extracted on Thursday (4.6.09). Pain! Marked the start of my watery diet.

4. Met up with my girls at Bugis on Friday (5.6.09). Hee. Happy. ^^

THIS WEEK:

1. Nothing much happened from Monday-Wednesday! But today! I had my braces on!
FINALLY. PAIN! =)

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-05-21T10:01:00.006+08:00

Okay, Last Saturday i went for my cousin's wedding at OCC.

Actually didn't feel like going..... But.... Still went la...................

This little PRINCESS is simply too cute. She's Tong Tong. HA. Cute ya?
My little saviour on that day.

Lucky there is something to cheer about.

2009-05-20T22:18:00.003+08:00

Heard something today...

"LOVE is giving someone a chance to break your heart by trusting him/her won't do it"

Lovely.

I am really sad today! I had received a notice from SMU saying that my application has been rejected. Congrats me. One down. Two more to go. Hope that miracle will happen one day.

CHEER ME UP!

=(

2009-05-13T15:19:00.004+08:00

Okay, I think it's going to be almost a month since i last

update this blog.
Poor blog.........
=(

Okay, life seemed as bored as ever for me.
WORKING ------- TUITION ------- HOME
This is my basic routine.

But somehow, there are always people around me that will spice up my life.
Here they are.....

Angels (A few of them) have been popping into my life recently.....

I felt so happy with their existance. It really brighten up my days.

Okay, i'll end here then.

-ME, MYSELF & I-

2009-04-20T08:32:00.002+08:00

OKOK. I'm back from Genting. Seriously, if u're not 21...... DON'T GO!

The mall is just way too small for shopping pleasure to be pleased.

Endded up, i'm sleeping most of the time. LOL.

Pics wil be uploaded later =).

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-04-13T22:42:00.004+08:00

Had been a long time ever since i lasted bloged! Let's recall what had happened.

April 8: Attended Yi Tee's & Jane's 21st Birthday at aloha.

April10: Good Friday cum Azlinah's Birthday.

April 11: Met up with Shanlyn, Jun Jie's Birthday and Aden's 1st Birthday celebration. (Photos to be updated later)

April 12th: CLYDE's Birthday. However, I was too busy to celebrate with 'him' =( (Sorry!)

Just only a week and so many events happened.

What's next?

April 17-19: Off to Genting

April 17: Melissa's 19th Birthday. opps, looks like i'm going to spend again! =)

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-03-30T14:27:00.003+08:00

Ok. Rather tired and bored now. Had been looking at the computer since dont know when.

Here is a picture of me during work. =) Courtesy of Azlinah. Bugger bug bug bug.

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-03-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

I start to realise that in life, i'm considered one of the fortunate one. Some people around me are always living with the basic necessity and me? Always more than what i need. Growing up is a process that I have to learn to give up, give in and to always think for the rest. I have heard of a family that don't even have the luxury to eat out even once a month. They lead a simple but tough life. Having only the dad as the bread winner of the house, they survived through mocking from other, others who are more affluent. However, this family never once frown. They cotinue to live their lives in the way they are comfortable with and be contented in all the thing that they have. I remembered that last year, i went out with this family to have dinner, the kids asked imediately when they settled down in the coffeeshop,"Daddy are we really going to have our dinner here? Are we really allowed to order anything that we want?" I was shocked to heard these questions. Never in my life i asked my parents that. We are fortunate, lets all share with others.

Just a joke of the day, other than being clusmy enough to always get bruises all over myself, learned something new! SCRETCH MYSELF IN MY DREAM!

2009-03-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Where Your life is Going You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what. You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan.
Commitment
Being Alone
Death
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Disappointment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

This quiz was taken from my sis's blog. Her result was that she fear to lose someone. Me? saw it right? I think i am just somehow, too independent.

2009-03-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Saw something sweet on the train today.
Not to mention, it was between a low IQ couple.
I always have this thinking that people with lower IQ will have difficulties finding someone that love them or truely understand and show care and concern for them.
But today, i saw. He was so caring and the two of then are so loving.
I start to wonder, perhaps true love can only be found when there is 100% acceptance from both parties.

-Me, Myself & I-

2009-03-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

I had received a call last night that i think it will change the direction of my life soon.

I went back to school today and checked upon all Poly's website, seems like lady luck is not looking after me or even close to my side. So much i wanted to be a happy girl that awaits all the "Suppose to hapen things" to happen in my life. However, sometimes life is just so unexpected. Never will i expect myself to under go what i'm going through now. Life is about decision and choice making, just hope that after all, no matter what i choose in the end, i'll have no regrets and will be happy about the choice and decision that i had made for myself.

I called for help, but, just as i expected, HELP will only be useful if i have something in mind, something that will give me clue about what i want and what i need.

A question was posted to me yesterday:

"Now, your wish is to go to where you are suppose to be or to go to where you are suppose to be and do something you really like and enjoy?"

I had been pondering about this question the whole night.

Conclusion: I want to be where i am suppose to be and do what i want! = Repeat.

Shopping therapy seems to be useless recently, no matter how much i pamper myself, there ae limited gains.

- Me, Myself & I -

2009-03-07T18:57:00.004+08:00

This week had been a tiring week. On monday, i came back from Hong Kong. What a fun trip. By Friday, everything has changed... Hope everything will be fine for me. Smooth and without any Obs.

2009-02-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

Visited My Dearie's blog and got to know tt i need to do this.

TEN ARE YOUS

1. Are you single - Yes .
2. Are you happy - Yupp (:
3. Are you bored - Nope .
4. Are you fair - YES ~
5. Are you Italian - No .
6. Are you intelligent - HA.
7. Are you honest - Yes.
8. Are you nice - YUP.
9. Are you Irish - No .
10. Are you Asian - Precisely .
TEN FACTS

1. Full Name- Tan Xe Ling .
2. Nicknames - Ling, Ah Mei Mei, Karlyn .
3. Birth place - KK Hosp .
4. Hair color - Natural Honey .
.5. Natural hair style - Sort of Straight .
6. Eye Color - Brown .
7. Birthday - 4 Nov 89

Where's the no. 8 ? o_O !
9. Favorite color - Green.
10. One place you'd like to visit - Paris x:
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - Yes .
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Nope .
3. Do you currently have a crush? - No .
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? - Yes .
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - Think so .
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Yes .
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Precisely .
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Now I am .
9. Who was the last person you hugged - Kun Wei .
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - Azlinah !

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. Love or lust - Love .
2. Hard liquor or beer - Hard Liquor .
3. Cats or dogs - Dog .
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - My Dearies and my CNB friends .
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy .
6. Pencil or Pen - Pencil .
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in .
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness .
9. Night or day - Night .
10. IM or phone - Phone .
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - Nope .
2. Seen a polar bear - Yes .
3. Done something you regret - I think so .
4. Bungee jumped - Nope .
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - I think when i was young?
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - No .
7. Been caught naked - NEVER !
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Thought of before .
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Na .
10. Wanted to disappear - The world is so nice, why?

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes - Eyes.
2. Light or dark hair - Dark .
3. Hugs or kisses - Hugs .
4. Shorter or taller - Taller .
5. Intelligence or attraction - Both .
6. Topman or Zara - Zara.
7. Funny or serious - Both .
8. Older or Younger - Older .
9. Outgoing or quiet - OutGoing .
10. Sweet or Bad - Both.

TEN HAVE YOUS

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes .
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Yes .
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - Nope .
4. Ever been to a rock concert - No .
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team - Na .
6. Ever been on a dance team - No .
7. Ever been on a sports team - Yes .
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - Yes .
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - In my dream .
10. Ever been in a rap video? - NEVER .

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made - Kun Wei .
2. Last person you hugged - Kun Wei .
3. Last person you hung out with - Azlinah.
4. Last time you worked - Few hours ago .
5. Last person you talked to - Kun Wei .
6. Last person you IM'd - I dont IM .
7. Last person you texted - Daphlyn .
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Kun Wei.
Where's the no. 9 too ?!
10. Last website visited - FaceBook.

2009-02-16T22:20:00.003+08:00

Days passes by so fast, next week i'll be flying off to HK. Finally i can have some REST! Looking forward. Recently, many things happened. There are both happy and sad stuffs, however, to me i'll only remember the GOOD ones.

Two days ago was Valentine's Day, i had enjoyed the day with my friends at work. They are really a group of funcky people. We went to CQ to had a drink (it's a pity that i only drank fruit punch).

-This is our group photo-

-WaiLeong and me-

-WaiLeong with the flower i brought-

In return of the flower i brought for him, he actually brought me a purple rose. However, by the time i got home, i realise i've got 3 roses. Wow, what hapened? This is because, WL also brought roses for the other 2 guys but they purposely left it in my bag and eventually, all the roses became mine!

-Snapped while i'm eating-

I enjoyed the day to the fullest, thanks to this bunch of jokers. My life in CNB is now so different. Full of laughters all day long.

Okay, other than having photos on Valentines' Day, i've also taken some pictures while i'm working. With my partner and our new friend NING XIN. I basically demanded them to do stupid moves with me. However, i think only AZ can fit into the STUPID category with me. HA.

-STUPID PICS 1-

-STUPID PICS 2-

-STUPID PICS 3-

-That is Azlinah (STUPID Partner, i'm the dumb one!)-

-Ning Xin-

-Finally some NORMAL Pics-

2009-01-25T00:25:00.005+08:00

Fine Fine, i admit, i felt empty in the night cause my daily routine was disrupted by a dissapearence.
Adapting now and well.
Cause my babes is talking to me!

2009-01-22T16:08:00.005+08:00

Ha. It has been a long time ever since i last blogged.
Seriously i've got nothing to blog too.
Life have been great recently.
Sometimes i wonder, if i don't talk or reply, do i really give people an impression that i'm angry?
I'm someone that is easy-going, i seldom get ANGRY unless you really piss me off.
So far, it has been a nice 2009, i'm feeling great.
Be it SINGLE or ATTACHED,
Spending time with the people I want to spent with,
Always make me feel contented and happy that there are many around that love and care for me.

2009-01-14T22:24:00.011+08:00

Fine Fine, shall blog about some of the things that happen recently.
1. Someone complain that my blog lack pictures.
2. Outings and celebration took place.

Okay, i shall now start with what happen on 12 Jan.
I actually told him that i won't be blogging his pictures.
But, i think i should la since it explains the 'celebration' stated above. LOL.
The follow are some pictures of that day:

We went FIN for a dinner. Believe it or not, i actually ate FISH!

The Birthday Boy. (He requested for his name to be mentioned: KunWei)

Than we visited ACID BAR. The tender check my i/c la!

That is us, in the bar. (Okay, i know i looked much younger)

Next is the outing with my girls on 13 Jan.
Okay, cause my brother brought me a camera, so i started cam war with my girls. LOL.
The follow are some pictures of that day:

Went for some CHILL OUT.

Funny Right?

Shanlyn and Me.

Daphlyn and Me!

OOOOOOO. I almost forget about this LITTLE BOY's picture that i took before i went for celebration on 12 Jan.

TaDa.........
Wai Leong!

2009-01-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

Went out today, took time-off from work.
Went shop a while, OMG, i saw this bag from ZARA and i love it so much!
I don't care if i have enough money to survive or not for the month,
I'm getting it tmr!!!!

2009-01-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

Bad luck!
Bedridden!
Why?
Because i got rashes all over my body!
All my plans has changed their status.
From CONFIRMED to TENTATIVE.
Hai, hope the rashes will subside by tomorrow morning.

=(

2009-01-06T14:05:00.004+08:00

I have never felt so frustrated in my life before.
Perhaps this is because i'm also unsure about what had irritated me.
Anger vanted deep within me is killing.
Other than feeling the pain for myself, i really don't know how to
Deal,
Express and,
Get rid of my complex emotions.
Being complex isn't a wise choice, perhaps i should really keep things simple.
Never allow my thoughts to run wild.

Very much i wanted to believe in myself but i just cannot convince myself that my judgement is correct and reliable!
very much i wanted to believe in those around me, but i just cannot bring myself to it.
Very much i wanted to be nice to You and Me but i just can't help but run away.
So much so 'Very Much', None is what i can achieve.

2009-01-04T00:26:00.003+08:00

LOL, it has been a long time ever since i last sang.
It was a fun session today, beng able to sing with Jun Jie and Daphlyn.
NICE ONE PEOPLE!

I found something so pissing today, my son, CLYDE, had a hole in the back!
I think this is due to the miss handeling by the junior stuff at BABW.
She didn't stitch it properly.
I was so anxious that i rushed immediately down to the nearest outlet to get the hole done!
He was with me the whole session.

Chated with 2 people about my future doings today.

"If i'm holding you back, just let me know, i'll be willing to step out of your life, seriously i want you to live and do well", said.............

"I think it is time that you really have to consider about it, i see it as more than friendship, think about it", said..........

Ha, two people giving two different type of sayings on different focus.

2009-01-02T09:42:00.002+08:00

Pissed me off to the max!
I reached office this morning and received a very disturbing e-mail!
I was told that my pay on the festive eve will be counted as half-day pay!
Meaning my pay was being CUT!!!!!
OMG, i'm already so broke and they are still doing this to me.

The reason they gave was that i left the office at 1pm on the eve of PH so i am not entitled to full day pay.
But i did not choose to leave at 1pm, it was by default that i have to leave at 1pm!
Piss me to the max.
What a day to start a fresh year at my workplace!
Just my luck!

2008-12-30T16:39:00.005+08:00

Conversation between me and my friend:

Ben: Xue Ling, do you think i should meet up with my ex crush while i'm now attached?

Me: I think you should or else you will never give up. Rather than hurting your GF now,
why not give her a definate answer by facing the problem? I think that will be better.

Ben: If that is the case, than how am i going to tell my Gf about the absent of me on Next mon
(Date with ex crush)?

Me: Be a mute, dont let her know, till you are sure about what you are thinking than that is the time to be frank to her about what had happen all these while on your mind.

For me, maybe i shouldn't even have been frank to anyone.
In the mean time, seriously if i'm still the same old me that i can predict or even forsee the final outcome.
Hence, more time is needed for now.
Give me the time and patience.
Or never to get it.

2008-12-29T11:24:00.004+08:00

Wow, i'm sick today! Gosh.. So bad.. Some more i still have to drag myself to work.
But i was lucky enough cause i brought Clyde along with me today!
My boy will be my partner today!
=)
Smile as tomorrow will be a better day!

2008-12-28T13:34:00.003+08:00

Isn't this cute??

2008-12-26T21:55:00.003+08:00

I have been through so much and yet i'm still behaving like a child.
Seriously i think i need more time to cope in order to be more independent.

Met up with mel today, she asked why do i like 'Self-Improvement' books?
So i answered, 'Because i learn how to be more patient from there.'
But it seem like i'm still not making full use of what i had read and learned.
I'm still behaving like a kid, mood easily affected. The only good things is that i don't show it.
Maybe that is the only thing i'm practicing upon all learnings from those books that i had read.

Being independent isn't a very easy or difficult thing to achieve.
It all depents on my determination.
Maybe only when i'm able to be FULLY independent, than that is the right time.

2008-12-26T15:38:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow will be the day.

People.

2008-12-25T22:37:00.002+08:00

When for a celebration with my girls yesterday. This was the first time all of us spent christmas together (meaningful!). Had photos and lunch. Recently my concentration spent dies of easily, this might be due to the bio clock in me. Once the time clocked 8, that is it...... DEAD. Have to change! If not sooner or later no one will be willing to date me out after my work. =)

BTW, i'm wondering why some people is able to fill all of their every blog post with WORDS?

Should I?

2008-12-24T08:57:00.002+08:00

Accidently came across this quote this morning.
" No offense is unforgivetable,
Unless you make it so,
Use your power wisely."
Am i not wise enough to ask the question, " Should I?"

Found out something...

2008-12-21T22:57:00.004+08:00

Found out that i needed alot of money recently because i've got alot of things that i wanted to do. As well, found 'lobang' that if we go genting during weekdays, each pax only need to pay ard $85 including hotel!! OMG! Hai, but all my friends got ITP. What to do??

2008-12-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

The blog was officially ready on 20th Dec 2008.

My plans.

2008-12-20T21:09:00.004+08:00

Was planing for my HK trip. Though it may just be a country near Singapore, but it is where i'm going to start learning what is 'Travelling Alone'. I enjoyed the process of planning and researching. I felt so 'Independent'. I'm a big kid!

BTW, planned for the oversea class gatherig too. Confirmed it to be on the 10, 11, and 12 of April 2009. Seriously hope ALL will go! I miss those days that we people really unite as one and do things as one body.

Have been behaving weird lately, didn't really know what is on my mind. Wanted something but wasn't sure if i can get it or i already has it. Contradicting. LOL.

2008-12-18T12:00:00.000+08:00

Just got my access to Blogger.com today.
It just sounded so stupid that i don't even know that i have to sign in to blogger main in order to blog.
Too bad, that is me. The lousy me.
Work is super boring.
I have been doing things that i won't do in the past.
i.e Gaming. =)
No worries, i'll survive in this job as people here are so NICE!

In Sane

2008-12-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously out of my mind. What the hell am i thinking? I dont even understand myself now. Why would i even thought of accepting your invitation!! I'm seriously insane! OUT OF MY MIND! I'm really a gone case one.

The First

2008-11-28T14:12:00.000+08:00

This is my Very first post!
Nth to say.
Random!