Have not been blogging for a long period of time.

Came here to write what i wanted to say to you cause i know... this is the safest place. no one will be here.

i don't know since when, our relationship see's cracks and i didn't even know. on my part, i failed to be a good gf who looks after your needs and wants... so many things... so many...

it was all fine. i mean, no preceding events that leads to such an outcome. i have to admit, adjusting is so tough. i know you are communicating with her and yet, not me... i know. how i wish i was still the one you are contacting.

to come to such a decision, i saw your struggles too. none of us had a good time during the break up. i am sorry i hurt you too.  i really am.

i have so many things in mind that i didn't know what to say... but all that i know was that... you wanted to leave, leave to be a stronger man, we cant rectify our problems while you are still with me... it is difficult. i know. i suffered. i hope you don't see how i did suffered. i became so weak. so so weak.

i have always though that you will be my last man, the one who i will walk the rest of my journey with... but who knows? this change. hope smashed. hero died overnight.

i really love you as who you are and still, am loving.. unconditionally. this, i hope you see. come home safe and sound, don't get hurt. cause, if you feel hurt, i'll feel it double. please, be safe.

always loving, never ending.