Have not been blogging for a long period of time.

Came here to write what i wanted to say to you cause i know... this is the safest place. no one will be here.

i don't know since when, our relationship see's cracks and i didn't even know. on my part, i failed to be a good gf who looks after your needs and wants... so many things... so many...

it was all fine. i mean, no preceding events that leads to such an outcome. i have to admit, adjusting is so tough. i know you are communicating with her and yet, not me... i know. how i wish i was still the one you are contacting.

to come to such a decision, i saw your struggles too. none of us had a good time during the break up. i am sorry i hurt you too.  i really am.

i have so many things in mind that i didn't know what to say... but all that i know was that... you wanted to leave, leave to be a stronger man, we cant rectify our problems while you are still with me... it is difficult. i know. i suffered. i hope you don't see how i did suffered. i became so weak. so so weak.

i have always though that you will be my last man, the one who i will walk the rest of my journey with... but who knows? this change. hope smashed. hero died overnight.

i really love you as who you are and still, am loving.. unconditionally. this, i hope you see. come home safe and sound, don't get hurt. cause, if you feel hurt, i'll feel it double. please, be safe.

always loving, never ending.

Okay.. I am very sad... I have wrote a page full of words and it just suddenly went missing. DAMN!

Wahahaha, Finally i am back for a last update before the start of a whole new year!!!

Okay, in this year, i have accomplished a lot of things, hopefully next year will be a better year for me and i'll be able to attain my greatest wish of successfully appeal into a local university to end my misery days.


Love all.

Today is my first day of school, felt damn stress about the start of the day. So much to vent, felt so loved when my sweet girlfriend mesaged me and wish me good luck for my very first day! Love you Miss Ng. I have my concern parents to be waiting for my calls from home. As well, nice boyfriend's mother to message and show concern about my first day in school! Love you all!

Tho' it is a very tiring and lousy start of my school term but lets hope everything will soon get into place. I am super rusty now, being out of school for more than 1yr, seriously hope i will perform!

Okay, am on the line now, see ya'!

She is so cute!!!

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Super Duper Tired!

I have been calling out for help over the past few days and finally one kind soul is here to my rescue. :) (What a close shave...) Imagine if she did not appear? Than i would be in deep shit. Now than i realise how important it is to be nice to everyone around you as you might not know they will be you saviour one day.

My wish: Get it over and done with so that i can start a fresh soon. :)
God, may you be on my side.

Okay I shall not make you be caught in a difficult position. I know I am being petty and fussy! I promise I'll be a good 包 and your good 包. Take care. Love you.

Today is my last day of work. Have had a good farewell lunch with my unit. Love the scrap notebook that they have done for me. Love it so much! I think i really need to start playing with my new PET before the master of it comes after me! ^^

Tomorrow will be the start of my unemployed days. Rest well XueLing!

Love my pals too.(Those who have been texting and are around me!)
You too my pals, rest well!

Good Bye, See You, Love You!

Labels: Good Bye, Love You., See You

.About me.

I love scrapping recently as there is a dark secret behind it, I like scrapping as I feel that you are around. I am not coping.

I scrapped and answered my love ones rubbish on messages, I seriously think that I need some rest. However, it is contradicting, my rest time is approaching soon, from next Tuesday onwards, but this is also the start of another fear, fear of scrapping the whole day to feel your presence.

Where will you be?

Hello everyone, here for some updates.


Recently am crazy over card making. I almost spent all my allowance in Paper Market and Made With Love! However, thanks to 小白 for funding some of my new pets! Haha, (this is the first time he paid without nagging) heehee. shhhh.

A lot of things happened recently, I have learn the beauty of not communicating through MSN or SMS for important stuffs that might cause a misunderstanding to arise. Phone or directly conveying of message is the best option to avoid SILLY Misunderstandings and make those people involved look like fools (as sometimes words are not being transmitted word for word ! instead, only rough ideas). SO peps, to avoid such situation to happend in your life, hit my advise please.

My 小白 is so loving recently, guess what, the best time to con your boyfriend into buying you any funny stuffs is when they just finish their first 2 weeks worth of confinement in army. lol. They are simply like those folks who have been seduced by young pretty ladies, willing to fork out all their money for you. hahahaha. 小白 I didn't mean to say you are one. Wahahahaha. No doubt, I just simply love you. All of you! Thank you 小白 in advance! See you next weekend!

Sometimes LOVE just ain't enough.
No mater how tolerant we are, sometime love from us to you are just ain't enough to cover everything that you have done.

Labels: Grow up., Move on